last days...

mixture of mixed feelings... glad tat i am moving out of the house, one which is a paradise for my utmost fear... but on the other hand, sad and remorse tat i no longer live in this neighbourhood, which is just 10 mins away from chelsea, and 10 min to a huge hypermart and of cos sad that i no longer live wif my hsemates. there are good times n bad times, whinging and complains, laughters and craziness. all learn to grow and live wif each other despite our different living habits, we survived...there are bound to be a long list of moments we shared that i will miss, and there are times where i can't wait for it to be over.. but thinking bout it... without bad times, there won't be a good time. picture of me n housemates, nicki, lucie n clairethese 3.5 years in london will forever be in my memory, everything from living with classmates, going to school, catching the 239 bus, stealing toilet paper, the library, everything... part of me would wish tat this 3.5 years never end, but i have to accept that it is a phase in life which has gracefully past and its time for me to move on, just like the time when i embark on this journey 3 years ago.
the number of people that i have met and known during these 3 years, each have their impact on me, some huge, some minimal, but all in all, they meant something to me. i think 2 years ago, i started to accept that it's normal in life that we have to embrace partings and appreciate life... last 3.5 years, i experience many loved ones departing from me, either going to another country, another job, or even, another world. it's devastating at first, but, that's life... if we don't part, we cannot miss. i cannot deny that i will be sad that i will be leaving my classmates and teachers upon graduation, but, i guess, i looked at it in a slightly different perception, that, the world is not that big afterall, with technology so advanced, keeping in contact is simply not a problem. my main disappointment and upset is spending time together with the teachers and classmates in class, doing classes together and hanging out... especially when the teachers are at such ripe age... it will be tormenting to see them go....
have to get back to packing... will write more soon... especially the weird dream i had last nite...